Well, here we are. We’ve made it to the end of another college semester, you and I. It’s quite an accomplishment, when you think about it. It’s one of those things that you get to the end of, and you’re like, psht, why did I just do that? Oh yeah. Because society mandates that I have a degree to accomplish anything in life and I don’t have the balls to join one of those off-the-grid farming communes. But I digress. Since I spend most of my time slaving away at school, I figured I should probably learn some things. And I actually have learned something this semester. Amazing, I know. But I’m not talking about shear flows and design processes and control systems. I mean that knowledge is in my brain somewhere, but what I’m talking about is stuff they don’t teach you in school. They should, but they don’t. Anyway, since I’m racking up student loans out the wazoo, I figured I’d let you know what I am getting out of it.
The first thing that I’ve learned, is that people can, in general, be counted upon to suck. People suck. They suck pretty bad. People are selfish, and mean, and lazy, and they don’t do their jobs, and they ruin all your group projects. I apologize for the lewdness of the desriptor, but it’s the one that keeps coming to mind. There are as always, exceptions to this rule. Obviously not everyone sucks. Some people are awesome. Some people make it worth staying on Earth, and not building a rocket and setting up shop on Arkentoofle Minor or Gagrakacka. (Don’t forget your towel.) I like these people. These people I choose to interact with. But at the same time, there are some truly terrible awful people out there, and they will be in the sky like a dark cloud no matter what you do, because you are neither the weather man, or God. These people being there always like the bubonic plague or any given AE-318: Aerospace Structures lecture, brings me to the next thing that I learned this semester.
It’s not fair. It here can be anything you choose, and please, choose anything, because it will fit. It’s not fair. Whatever it is. Life, liberty, the pursuit of happiness, not fair. Because you see, you can be an awesome person and do the right things and be succesful and hard working and then some Aerospace Structures lecture comes along and chooses healthcare reform to be his signature legislation and ruins everyone’s lives. (There’s other things, too.) And do you know what? There’s actually nothing you can do about it. Unless you’re a congressperson. In that case, what the actual fuck? Again, I digress. But it’s not fair. It can’t be fair. There’s too many of them out there to get rid of them all without being convicted of mass genocide. The stormy cloud people, I mean. No the truth is, that some people will work really hard all their lives, and then other people will benefit from it.
The truth is, it’s actually not fair from the beginning. Some people are dealt a better hand. Some people happen to be in the right place in the right time. Some people just have better luck. Some people are stronger. Some people are smarter. Some people are naturally talented at some things, and some people are naturally talented at other things. These things need to be accepted…because they are all true. I will say however, I believe everyone has their something. It’s just that not everyone is natrually good at what they WANT to be naturally good at. What else can I say, it’s just not fair. I’ll also say that you’ve no doubt heard this from various adults throughout your life, but there’s a moment that you’ll get to when it really hits you. At that moment, you’ll want more than any other moment to be in Arkentoofle Minor, probably with a pan galactic gargle blaster, but you can’t do that, because it’s a totally made up thing. You’ll just have to stay here and deal with it. And yes, I do realize if you haven’t had that moment, this is just another source telling you it’s not fair and not really sinking in, but at least when you get to that moment you’ll realize it’s just a depressing truth sooner and spend less time dealing in false hope. Now, that one out of the way we can move on to somthing almost not as depressing.
The third thing that I learned this semester, is that it is the little things that will make the biggest difference. For example, in senior design, we had to basically design SpaceShipOne, but without just outright copying SpaceShipeOne. So we did. And on the second day of class we decided to add large air-brakes to our design to slow it down when it was descending back to Earth. Then we proceeded to not talk about it for three months, spending many many hours doing other spaceshippy things. Wouldn’t you know, the professor almost started pleasuring himself to those air-brakes. To the point in fact, that he overlooked many other things that were not so good in our reports. I know this, because I did a lot of work on the reports, and I know what’s in them. This example not only proves that it’s the little things that make the differences, but also that it’s not fair. All you have to do is come up with some blasted mother loving air-brakes, and you don’t really have to do any real hard work or anything. (That’s not to say that you won’t or shouldn’t, but you don’t HAVE to.)
The fourth thing that I’ve learned this semester, is that you really need to just grow a pair, and man up, and take control of your life and get it on the track you want it on. Yes, you. You reading this. Go on, do it. Yes, you’re scared to, yes, it’s kinda terrifying, but go and do it. (If you’ve already had this realization and done it, bravo!) But no one else is going to do it for you, it’s up to you. You’re mission, should you choose to accept it, is to go and do whatever it is your heart tells you you should be doing. If you have no clue what that means, try and listen to your heart. It probably has some intersting things to say. If you’re really stubborn and bull headed and have a bunch of excuses as to why you should not do that and keep banging your head against a wall doing what it is you’re currently doing, I feel ya. Hit me up and we’ll go through this together.
And finally, the thing that I think hit me this semester, actually, while I was writing this, is that you will never ever escape your past. You will one day learn to live with it. You might even forget about it, temporarily. But you will never escape it. It will always be a part of you. This being said, those of you young ones reading this, think very hard and very carefully before you do anything. Think especially hard and carefully if what you’re about to do involves someone you love, or care about. Think even more especially hard and carefully if it’s someone you THINK you love or care about. And for goodness sakes, learn the difference between love and lust quick, and then don’t be scared to love. I’m not just talking about the romantic kind either. If you screw up here, it will never escape you. So please don’t screw it up. For yourself, and for those you actually love, or will actually love. Your actions have consequences and often you can’t even imagine what they might be.
So there. That’s it. That’s what I’m taking away from life this semester put out here, on the internet. Take from it what you will, take from it with many grains of salt, or don’t take from it at all. I’ve written here honestly, and from my heart. And, if you’ve gotten this far down the page, don’t worry about the second paragraph, you’re probably one of the good ones. Thanks for reading.